25 Jan 2012, Posted by yohami in personal, 39 Comments.
OK. I Am A Narcissist.
OK. I Am A Narcissist.
http://psychcentral.com/cgi-bin/narcissisticquiz.cgi
Authority: 7.00
Self-Sufficiency: 2.00
Superiority: 4.00
Exhibitionism: 4.00
Exploitativeness: 1.00
Vanity: 1.00
Entitlement: 2.00
Your Total:21
Between 12 and 15 is average.
Celebrities often score closer to 18.
Narcissists score over 20.
Because you scored 18 or higher, you may want to check out the symptoms of narcissistic personality disorder.
Sure, lets check these symptoms
http://psychcentral.com/disorders/sx36.htm
Has a grandiose sense of self-importance (e.g., exaggerates achievements and talents, expects to be recognized as superior without commensurate achievements)
I do have a grandiose sense of self-importance.
But its more of a responsibility thing. You know that spiderman saying. With great superpowers also comes great sex. Being in charge = being responsible = being important = having it big. Thats as clear as day.
What I dont do is take credit where its not due. So the “exaggerates achievements and talents” is bullcrap. As long as I have some air and some territory to piss on, Im fine.
Is preoccupied with fantasies of unlimited success, power, brilliance, beauty, or ideal love
Im not preoccupied. I´ll make it happen.
Believes that he or she is “special” and unique and can only be understood by, or should associate with, other special or high-status people (or institutions)
Im a freak if that´s what you mean. And I relate better to other freaks. Now if you want to call me special, thank you.
So its more about awareness and owning yourself and your decisions and looking / living outside of the norm – that makes me a freak, while the mainstream culture and wisdom resembles zombieland.
The value through association is another no-go. Mostly because all these so called special institutions / high status people are obviously beneath of me. If we get associated I AM THE ONE giving value. Alpha 101.
Requires excessive admiration
I dont require it, it just happens.
Has a very strong sense of entitlement, e.g., unreasonable expectations of especially favorable treatment or automatic compliance with his or her expectations
Nah. You get what you pay for, or get what you deserve. I dont have a dick of gold. Its not made of gold, I swear. You can take your hand out of my pants now.
Is exploitative of others, e.g., takes advantage of others to achieve his or her own ends
Nah. Exploitment done by anyone on anyone, it pisses me off. Im more likely to be fighting these fuckers.
Lacks empathy, e.g., is unwilling to recognize or identify with the feelings and needs of others
If all the sacred empathy of the the universe circled around a powerful magical spot and suddenly materialized as a big holy huge thick and happy marvelous cock, that would be me. I love you.
Is often envious of others or believes that others are envious of him or her
I forgot how it feels to “envy”. Not in my lexicon. I dont register it either.
Regularly shows arrogant, haughty behaviors or attitudes
Errrr. You got me.
So whatever. Am I a Narcissist? if so Im all over the place. How come I dont have the nasty traits, yet I score 21? who do I think I am? how will our hero resolve this dilemma?
Anyway, take that test and share the results. Im curious.
My name is Yohami.
Im a Singer/Songwriter.
Im on my way to have fun. 
39 Comments
January 25, 2012 6:09 am
Leap of a Beta
I personally think any kind of artist is going to score narcissist on that test. I scored fairly high (forget how now, maybe I’ll retake it) on it. Mostly on authority, self sufficiency, and superiority.
And I think I threw a couple answers toward not narcissist because I hated the way it was set up, saw myself as inbetween, and chose the not-narcissistic option.
January 25 2012 06:16 am
yohami
Artists are fucked up people from the get go.
January 25 2012 06:20 am
Leap of a Beta
True story. But I love my brand of fucked up person. I wouldn't be anything other than an artist for the world.
January 25 2012 07:16 am
Leap of a Beta
Sasha, how does always giving value mean that you can't ever be receiving value? The two are not mutually exclusive.
January 25 2012 07:17 am
Leap of a Beta
Weird, it didn't leave the comment at the end but put it in reply. doh.
January 25, 2012 6:10 am
Sasha
Most psychiatric categories are quite meaningless without in-depth observation and careful consideration of context. Most truly special people – those who pushed the envelope – would easily earn a diagnosis had they been born today.
You do exhibit some narcissistic traits but some of them seem to be a part of posturing alpha rather than being alpha-self. Your interest in narcissism, attraction to women who you identify as narcissistic ties in closely to exhibited traits.
OT: Congrats on pulling the plug on your RL. It sounded like a tedious boot-camp for you to discover and enforce your own boundaries. I wish you good luck in your search for a matching partner.
One suggestion – instead of concentrating on filtering out narcissistic women, figuring out how a woman can contribute to your life and seek those who do. Finding the positive is easier than pushing against the negative.
January 25 2012 06:21 am
yohami
Finding the positive is better than pushing against the negative - but my mistake was overlooking the negative, by thinking my leadership would suffice.
"You do exhibit some narcissistic traits but some of them seem to be a part of posturing alpha rather than being alpha-self."
Interesting.
January 25 2012 07:04 am
Sasha
Example right in this post:
" [...] I AM THE ONE giving value. Alpha 101."
= Alpha-posturing.
"[admiration]I don't require it, it just happens."
= being (?alpha-)self.
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(Ignoring the posturing part)- if you are always the one giving value, how do you receive it?
January 25, 2012 7:23 am
irishmaninsoflo @Twitter Name
I scored 35 with no big surprise,a friend of mine back in Ireland diagnosed me as a sociopathic narcissist,sometime last year,its all relative.
January 25 2012 07:47 am
yohami
35 = wtf.
January 25, 2012 8:25 pm
Stingray
6
January 25 2012 20:26 pm
yohami
You´re almost gone from this planet
January 25, 2012 8:29 pm
Stingray
I thought something along those lines as well. Little worried that it was so low. However, Markku said something that I think applies to me at Alpha Game. My self confidence is relative (Markku used the word nuanced, which I think works as well). I’m self confidence when I want/need to be, otherwise I really don’t care. Not quite sure what that means though. ; )
I guess if it’s important to me, I am confident. If it’s not important I’m indifferent.
Did you break it off with your girl? I’m sorry if that is the case.
January 25 2012 21:48 pm
yohami
I think the test is broken. The correlation between the different traits is more important than each trait on its own, and then each particular trait is contextual. Also some of these traits are just Yang polarity. You scoring low can mean you have lots of Ying and not a big ego, which is good. Its not a confidence test. I think I´ll break down my ideas about it in a post.
Yes I ended my relationship. Thanks for your advice though, it was helpful.
January 25, 2012 9:52 pm
Jesus Mahoney @Twitter Name
Yohami,
The authority, self-sufficiency, and even the exhibitionism all allow the narcissist to become successful in adapting to short term social situations. But the key traits that identify the narcissist and separate him from other popular and extroverted men are the exploitativeness and entitlement.
January 25, 2012 9:52 pm
Jesus Mahoney @Twitter Name
Also, I think he’d be defined by his sense of superiority.
January 25, 2012 10:00 pm
Jesus Mahoney
Stingray,
Self-confidence should be situational. When you’re in a situation where you feel competent, you should feel confident. Anybody who feels confident when he’s not competent, or finds himself feeling competent when he’s really not… is a buffoon.
January 28 2012 19:58 pm
modernguy @Twitter Name
"confident when he’s not competent [...] competent when he’s really not"
Haven't you heard? That's the essence of alpha. Women love it!
January 25, 2012 10:51 pm
Stingray
I think there might be different implications for men and women as well, though I have not been able to think through this completely yet. A narcissistic woman, I think, is going to get different reactions from those around her than a narcissistic man.
Purely from my own perspective, I find a man with some narcissistic traits desirable, whereas a woman with these same traits is . . . over the top. A desirable woman is one who is confident, but more subdued about it.
I don’t know. I am thinking out loud about something that I have thought about, but not enough yet to have formed a solid theory yet. Yohami could probably do a much better job explaining this, than me.
January 25, 2012 10:55 pm
Jesus Mahoney
Stingray,
Which narcissistic traits would you say you find desirable? vanity? exploitativeness? entitlement? superiority? authority? self-sufficiency?
The last two I’d say most women would find attractive. I can’t speak to the rest.
January 25, 2012 11:04 pm
Stingray
Jesus,
As a package:
A touch of vanity
No exploitativeness
A touch of entitlement (I believe a touch is motivating. It will propel a man to go after what he desires. More than a touch is too much.)
A bit more than a touch of superiority (a man who believes he is superior will often make himself so, though it should not be flaunted)
Lots and lots of authoritativeness
And a whole butt-load of self-sefficiency.
January 25 2012 23:15 pm
yohami
Self sufficiency is a two edge sword. Too much and you´re a loner, too little and you cant get stuff done. When paired with high authority, medium to low self sufficiency means leadership. With lack of authority, high self sufficiency means survival. High authority and high self sufficiency, paired with superiority makes for a dictator. Or it can make a good individual sports athlete. Or a writer. So these relationships between the traits and the context where they play are more important, in my view, than the stats alone.
January 25, 2012 11:25 pm
Stingray
Yohami,
I agree. Each one of these needs to be taken in context of their polar opposites as well. Some of each trait must be there. A person can be completely self sufficient if called to be, but does not necessarily mean that he is all the time. For example, my husband could be utterly self sufficient without me, but he doesn’t need to be with me around. It would hurt me tremendously if was in the context of our relationship. So maybe it also has as much to do with what would be necessary in a given situation vs. what is actually necessary in ones life.
January 26, 2012 7:46 pm
Sasha
“Ah, I thought you meant something else. Both phrases and most of this post is overthetop + tongue in cheek.”
Over-the top/tongue-in-cheek usually amplifies what is already there and contrasts previously blurry details.
January 26 2012 22:39 pm
Sasha
Then I am curious as to what did you think I meant?
January 26 2012 22:32 pm
yohami
Yep- Agree and amplify.
January 28, 2012 8:05 pm
modernguy
Yohami don’t you ever look at your posts and want to retch? I mean, how many times can you play a part over and over. And it’s not even a particularly original act either.
You think of yourself as an “artist”, but an artist to be capable of producing something worthwhile has to be authentic with himself, the more authentic the better. Or are you just trying to get on the radio?
January 28 2012 20:18 pm
yohami
"don’t you ever look at your posts and want to retch?"
Nope.
"to be capable of producing something worthwhile has to be authentic with himself, the more authentic the better."
Yep.
If you mean you didnt find this post funny, I did.
January 28, 2012 8:43 pm
yohami
Im researching so I can find the exact meditation I did. Right now I just contract my anus and the chackra sends me an absurd amount of energy. But that move alone is not enough to make it awake. The proper meditation has respiration / timing / focus etc.
January 30, 2012 8:17 pm
yohami
Here are the basic basics http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kundalini
The important part: if you do awaken this thing (you´re a writer, you may already have) be prepared to be out of your reality for a while. it can be unpleasant. when I did this thing I would lock in the bathroom and laugh histerically. I did it the bad way (I forced it). they describe how to do it the passive way (no awakening of that force until you´re ready).
Heres almost the exact procedure I did:
http://www.kundalini-yoga-info.com/long-deep-breathing.html
Modifications:
do about 12 breathings like that. then a long long exhalation until there´s no air in you. then pull your stomach up, and contract the anus like you´re trying to shit in reverse. try to orgasm with your ass. sustain that tension with all the strength you can for 10 seconds. then relax and inhale slowly, focusing on taking air from the top of your head, connecting your ass with the top of your head. repeat 4 times. so, that, once a day with your stomach emtpy. takes just a few min.
here´s more info on whats happening with the polarity of the energy while you´re at it
http://occult-advances.org/kund.shtml (edited)
this describes the initial experience well
http://kundalini.se/eng/breath.html
if you do it, good luck, and I want to know the results.
February 4, 2012 4:12 am
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February 4, 2012 9:47 am
Phoenix @Twitter Name
Authority: 5.00
Self-Sufficiency: 1.00
Superiority: 2.00
Exhibitionism: 4.00
Exploitativeness: 2.00
Vanity: 1.00
Entitlement: 3.00
Score: 18
All I can say is, I’m happy that it wasn’t higher than this. I had a medical probelm last year (tumor removed) and it probably amounted from all the emotional distress I put on myself for the past few years. Being narcisstic/sociopathic can put some emotional damage on ya if you’re not careful.
I’d rather be a good person and go with the flow, than demand attention and want the crowd to kiss my ass.
February 8, 2012 2:32 am
Woman @Woman_China
I scored a five.
And it makes me feel sad. I KNOW for a fact I have narcissistic traits and I know I am the best person on the planet (but others are best at various things, I am only the best at being me you know).
It strikes me as odd that I received such low scores on the exhibitionist category, especially when I love to show off my body. And do so frequently on my blog.
OH OH OH!! I’ve got it. Here is the ultimate and totally accurate narcissistic test:
Are you narcissistic?
a) Yes
b) No
February 15, 2012 9:55 am
faul_sname @Twitter Name
Several of the answers weren’t direct negations of each other. Test was not of good quality. (15, but is could have been anywhere from 10 to 20)
Ex. The thought of ruling the world frightens the hell out of me./If I ruled the world it would be a better place. (both true)
Likewise, I find it easy to manipulate people./I don’t like it when I find myself manipulating people. (once again both true)
and this. I expect a great deal from other people./I like to do things for other people. (this time both false)
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